THINGS I WISHED MY MOTHER WARNED ME ABOUT.CHAPTER ONE; LIFE.

I wished Maami told me it was a wild river that hosted many competitors.That the river housed crocodiles,sharks and whales.That the octopus and numerous wild fish roamed this river. That I had to fight and sometimes kill to survive.
How treacherous of Maami!

 I wished she not only handed me warm clothes,the Bible and hot food in my belly. She should have handed me the dagger,made me an armour and told me to sometimes starve.That way my hunger would have been for things and not people.
I would have had hate in my heart and not the sorrowful burden of love that tears me apart.

 I wished she told me to embrace ìbínú  when she visited. Hosted ìgbéràgà with joy. Instead she told me they were vices yet I see the predators wield their swords well only because they had dined and mastered with them.
Maami you have hurt me with your spiritual wisdom!

  I wished Maami told me not to have a smile on all the time. I wished she told me to be cold, selfish and brutal. Now my body is broken,my dignity is stripped and my confidence is shattered.
Maami still towers over me holding the Bible.
She tells me this is a test of faith.

  She says I am just like Job,I must endure all my perils to become the better version of me.
I wished I could look her up in the eye. I wish I could boldly tell her "let the devil take my soul."
But I fear her old heart might break and I would be left with an empty shell of her.
These I  hope to tell her one day. 

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